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Six years have come and gone since the devastating loss of my brother. Our hearts are still broke and we miss him so very much. I wish I could be able to come to terms with so many things, but the fact is mourning someone who means so much to you does and will never get any easier. I think about Shawn so much and think of how he would be so proud of Ciera and how much he would adore his niece Shawna. I also think of how thrilled he would have been to see the Steelers win the Superbowl. I know he is with me and when I feel really down thinking about him something odd happens out of nowhere and I know it is him telling me to cheer the hell up! I know he and my Pap,Grandma and the others we lost are looking down and watching us. We love and Miss you so much and never will you be forgotten.

Shawna looking at a photo of her Uncle Shawn & Ciera as the Steelers capture their 6th Superbowl.

~If We Could Have You Back~

If We Could Have You Back
For Just One Day,
There Would Be So Many Things
We Would Like To Say.

If We Could Just Be With You
For One Whole Day,
To Have You Close And Know
That You Really Are Okay.

If Only We Had Known
That You Would Be Gone Forever.
If Only We Had Known
All Those Ties Were Going To Be Severed.

If Only We Had Known The Pain, The Loss,
And The Ache To Come Our Way.
If Only We Never Knew The Difference
Life Without You Would Make.

In The Darkness Of Your Pain
You Slipped Away From Us All.
Now It's Just Your Memories
That We Have To Recall.

They Say That Parting Is Such Sweet Sorrow,
But It's The Longing, The Wondering,
And How To Cope With Tomorrow.

They Say That Grieving A Child Is The Very Worst,
Because Life's Plan
Is That The Parents Should Go First.

Now All We Have Are Memories,
The Good Times That We Had.
We Spend So Much Time In Tears
And Pain And Feeling Sad.

If We Could Have You Back For Just One Day,
You Could Let Us Know
How To Cope Until That Judgement Day,
When We'll Be Together As A Family Once Again,
When We'll All Be Happy
And Free From All This Pain.

It's So Hard To Live When Your Child Has To Die,
For Then We Spend Our Lifetime
Trying To Say Goodbye!
~Author: Unknow~